you feel nothing, but you speak of love.

I can't think of words to express how i feel. This summer has been a bunch of bullshit. I miss so many people so much. Many things have changed some for the better, a lot for the worst. Im leaving on Saturday, and i have this gut-wrenching feeling in my stomach, becuase someone who i thought of as my best friend seems to hate me right now. And this is all over what ?? Weither you read this or not im still getting it off my chest.. I understand that you hate it when i get jealous becuase you hang out with other girls, but i mean what am i supossed to feel, someone who hangs out with me everyday of my life and pays so much attention to me suddenly doesn't. The only reason i get so upset is becuase i know that you hanging out with other people means that we wont hang out as much, and its as if i will lose you. But this one time i was okay with it and i let you hang out with new people and whoever you wanted to hang out with, and i kept my mouth shut, and i put a smile on doing it, only becuase i know you hate it when im not happy or when im not in a good mood. I do everything for you. I tried to be nice, but i cant help noticing things are different and that change has happened. I just dont understand why you said such harsh words, what have i done to make you so angry. Theres nothing i can say or do to change what you think and feel. I just think it would been nice of you to explain all of this to me, but you have never been one for talking about things.

• You always made it seem like you cared.
• You dont understand how much you mean to me.
• My life seems to revolve around you.
• I guess this is me saying sorry.
• Everything you say makes me think about my actions.
• I don't want to leave with everything like this.
• I have been trying to work on not saying anything.
• This was for you.